Acceptance

So I have always thought of myself as a very accepting person, but today that has been pushed to the limits in ways that I didn't think it ever would, and while it has nothing to do with sewing at the moment... I feel about as stretreched to my limits as well crafted spandex over a rather large body.  Or stretch velvet, depending on your preference.

So my little sister came to me asking for help, needing a place to stay and help dealing.  Since I love her and I would never turn her away we made room for her in our tiny little apartment.  It was a tight fit, but hey we could have made it work. She is having boy troubles, fresh out of high school, dating this moron for three years, all they do is fight and scream, he wants to sleep with other women but yet lacks the balls to actually do it and what does she do?  Goes back... normally I would accept her decision and leave it at that.  But this happens again and again and I don't know how to handle this.  Do I just tell her "Screw off?"  do I give her an ultimatum... Why is she such an idiot. I don't get it.  Is it because I am in a good and healthy relationship, was I ever that stupid? 

Then, a friend, I guess you could call him... well I learned something today that I was not expecting.  He is Transgender, and while that acctually doesnt bother me, it was the relization that someone in my life, someone I acctually know, is pre/post op. While I have heard stories, even had a friend in school, whos uncle became her aunt.... it was a shock, and one I think he.... she could clearly see on my face and in my reactions.  Why when I for years have preached equalitly and coexisting to the point of turning blue in the face suddenly had a moment of "WTH!" My mind raced with apologetic thoughts for his wife, children... even parents, but it wasnt until my drive home at Four AM this morning that I relized I felt sorry for her.  How long had one person suffered through an identity crisis?

Which leads me to my last issue, me.  Can I accept me and the actions I have taken part in and the things I have said when it comes to these two very sepret events.  Can I step back and accept the fact that I will have to do things that I do not want to, or try to understand something I never truely can.

I would have said yesterday that I accepted everyone as they are....
Today, I questioned that statement...
Tomorrow, I will put it to the test.

Trying this out

So I don't normally blog, I have never found it to be interesting, but a sweet friend has one here and with my life how it is, overly dramatic and at times down right ridiculous, I think it was time that I had some form of something.  I hope that this will be an alright thing.